ego? whatever

egotistical, arrogant, pompous, full of yourself, conceited…
recently these words appear around my name very frequently.
why?
i wish I could know, but I think my narcissism blinds my eye,
and I could not see.
what is wrong with me?
i do not know; what i know is the effect has
cause me a great deal of rejection, not being rejected; but wanting to reject.
people measure others by their feelings, by their concept of values;
i, too; valuing people based on my experience and opinions.
there is no absolute right judgment, but there is a popular one;
which is accepted by most of people, and if I go against the current
bombs start to be shooting across the air.
maybe i am the one who don’t understand the system,
or i am empty headed about the culture;
i am just a piece that dont fit in,
i tried, i failed, and i lost myself
which i would surrender no more to this place...
i leave a space and do no offense, from my point of view of course;
maybe the collateral damage has occured,
and my presence becomes the problem itself.
but i am not here to please,

I need not care about the supposed “right way of conduct”
maybe my view insults people, destroys the value they live for, but please ,
stop croaking from the bottom of the well;
i kno i am a frog, too, but from another well.