let it be?

23 years ago, i was born to this world, though not by choice;
20 years ago, i chose to bath by myself while most kids still pee in their pants at night;
17 years ago, i became a nanny of a baby boy, the 1st time i hold bottles for others;
14 years ago, i chose to spend the summer at my aunt's house, and saw the 1st movie in my life;
11 years ago, i chose to trade my summer for cram school, to start ahead for junior high school;
8 years ago, i chose to leave home, leave the place and people i grew up wtih, pursue freedom;
and this is the turning point of my atypical experience that forms me.
4 years ago, after high school, i chose to come home, more precisly, fate called me back;
3 years ago, i chose to move out, took the test, moved my ass here;
2 years ago, i chose to sell my car, broke up with a girl, lost contact with friends; now i have none
last year, the effect of my decisions all comes back...aimless life...such an irony for i have away been planning and counting, making choices and hoping things go my way.
what it comes is everything but what i hope for. i will live up to it, for this was my choice; my life. all the discontents result in my choices; unless, i choose to jump in the current, and let it be.