get up, put it all together

after being low for a long period, i found out that i eventually get used to it, and are fond with it. not a good sign 'cause i hate myself being inactive and motiveless. the weird thing is i had several odd dreams these days, and these odd dreams are more horror than odd. it makes me wonder whether i am stressed or i am sick subconsciously. for my part, i tried to get myself out of this profound state from time to time. there are highs and lows in the process, and i repeated the failure because of a weak heart. now, I'll get up and put myself all together, future should be bright, not darkness.